Day out!

Had a long day with little but big brother today.
Or better to be described as tall and thin brother who is a younger brother. hee..
It has been a longg time since we had a good time together.

All that has been replaced today.
Nice lunch and a little shopping. ^^

How he looks now, I don't really prefer it. :p
But, he's still my brother. Nothing can change that fact though.
I wish the best for him. I always want to see him happy.
I always want the best for him.
He may not understand what I'm saying now.
Hope he'll understand it soon.

May God bless him with a mind that can think rationally.
Entertainment and too much of freedom is not good. Seriously.
So. May everything fall in place for him.
Want to see him in a good position.

At night, went to temple.
Heard things that are disturbing. Not what the priest had said, but what my aunt commented.
Hmm.. God knows what is the best for me.
May He guide me.

So disappointed.

Didn't expect such a downfall.
A reminder for me, that i would never get what i want always.
But yet. Its very difficult to see that.
Not sure how to console myself..
Wish I can redo the exam.

07/10/2011

yesterday was friday..
it was my dear friend's birthday.. so long x see her.. >.<
niway.. Happy birthday LYN.. <3 GBU..
n it was holiday for me.. heee..
so.. i woke up late..  =.=
did some spring cleaning.. laundry..
had a long shower.. n also a long walk to fill my stomach..
gt sweaty,. watch a comedy+horror movie.. den another sad movie..
bath again.. den pray.. watch movie again..

what im trying to tell here is that..
yesterday.
was a day that i didn't really like.. why??
cause...
felt FREAKING BORED!..
wish i was home.. would have had someone to talk with or spend time with..
x like now.. ALL ALONE.. like home alone.. but this is ROOM ALONE..
duhh.. at least that guy had some fun there.. not like me..

besides..
i felt little..
erm..
maybe little too frustrated with someone..
x know la why he did that..
i thought he said he can chat as usual once he's on break.. but he didn't reply my message..
hurrmmm..
x pe laaa..
bukannyer kisah pown kalau u x reply saya.. Ye larr tu.. tengah sakit hati niee
isshhh.. x suka la kalau diperlakukan sebegini!
eeee....
as though im the one who is going after him or etc..
hellooo.. i have other besties too k,.
i x know la if u have any valid reason o wt..
but..
im pissed off..
ish.. behaving like childish la plak..
but what to do..
I AM LIKE THAT..!

THIS IS WHY I X WANT TO GROW UP!!
I WANT MY BESTFRIENDS TO BE AT MY SIDE WHENEVER I WANT O SEE THEM!!
x like now..
wana see also can't..
n for some.. wanna reply aso cannot..
huh.. whatever laa..

oh yea..
i just discovered something..
im managing to control my emotions nowadays.. haha.. from making others my victim for sure..

and i gotta learn to let go a bit at times..
he always wont bother me when im with my bestie or when i talk about them..
so i should do the same..
right??
give him some space for his own self too.. can't hold him to me all the time..
 but its so hard though!! being too possessive now i think...


the conclusion is yesterday sucked.. it was horrendous!!!
(for me)
so those who read this.. no hard feelings k,,..
just showering my emotion.. or perhaps.. temper..